Beauty in the Process

 

I am a total advocate of self reflection and self expression. So as I sit here in front of my computer screen and reflect on the past few months I am compelled to express myself out of this frustration that has built up within me. The frustration of that voice that tells me I have not yet "arrived". Where did I expect to be at in this stage in my life... I'm not even sure. You ever just feel like where you are GREATLY pales in comparison to what God has in store for you? Now I know I am blessed and I have much to be grateful for, but that doesn't get rid of that underlying ache for more. There is nothing wrong with that ache. People will always try to tell you to be grateful, but that does not mean you should want to be stagnant. My current struggle has been finding the balance in perspective between where I want to be and where I am currently. 

I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.
— Tracee Ellis Ross

It is coming to the realization that my process was specifically designed for me to most effectively grow. Life is not about making it to a final destination, which some like to call "happiness". It is about finding beauty in YOUR process, not finding a solution through someone else's. Allowing our situation to change us and not waiting for our situation to change. When I look back two years ago and I think of where I was then, I start to actually see the divine beauty in the cards that have been dealt  to me. When I look at what I am called to do and my purpose I see the significance of the pace at which my process goes. It's a change in perspective, an epiphany that the race is never just about winning the prize, but enduring until the end. Don't look to your left or to your right...don't even look down. Keep your head up and your eyes fixed on Jesus. When we fail to find the beauty in the process we prolong it and stunt our growth. Everything you've gone through, everything you're going through and all the obstacles you will face are not intended to stop you from a prosperous future, but they are intended to grow you.